Playing the waiting game

Posted by tyan (Singapore, Singapore) on 15 January 2007 in People & Portraits and Portfolio.

I am 39 weeks pregnant with our second child. 8 days away from my due date to be exact. Caleb came when he was 38 weeks but Ian is staying in my tummy longer than his bro apparently.I am on one hand eager to meet him and end my 10 month pregnancy woes but rather apprehensive about how life will be like now with a baby and toddler.

I am planning to stay at home, God-willing for a few years. And I hope to homeschool the 2 kids and put my training as a teacher to good use. Its really a big step to take,considering the fact that I had no stay-at-home-mom-friends or relatives to look to nor will I have the blessings of many people except my husband(Ge'en) and one or two good friends. I love my job, I love teaching and the interaction with my students but I came to a point of realisation: Why am I spending so much time nurturing other people's kids and do not even spend enough time with my own?I hope that I can maximise these few years of bonding with Caleb and Ian.

I have been in 2 minds about whether to return to work after Ian arrives. I think about it even when i am sleeping!Told Ge'en today about my dilemma and he said that "money can always be earned but time spent with children are gone and lost forever."I suppose I still feel a bit insecure on having to survive on a single income with 2 kids.[Diapers,milk powder,blah]But i remind myself that some things cannot be measured in dollars and cents.

My good friend,Katherine told me "it's not how much one earns but how much one spends".I suppose I must learn to live within our means and be contented with whatever we are given.