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The sunrise of your smile

Posted by tyan (Singapore, Singapore) on 12 August 2007 in People & Portraits.

This is the title of a song by a Christian singer,Michael Card,written for his daughter.

Sunrise of Your Smile
Reject the worldly lie that says,
That life lies always up ahead,
Let power go before control becomes a crust around your soul,
Escape the hunger to possess,
And soul-diminishing success,
This world is full of narrow lies,
I pray by grace your smile survives.

Chorus- For I would wander weary miles,
Would welcome ridicule, my child,
To simply see the sunrise of your smile,
To see the light behind your eyes,
The happy thought that makes you fly,
Yes, I would wander weary miles,
To simply see the sunrise of your smile.

Now close your eyes so you can see,
Your own unfinished memories,
Now open them, for time is brief,
And you'll be blest beyond belief,
Now glance above you at the sky,
There's beauty there to blind the eye,
I ask all this then wait awhile,
To see the dawning of your smile.

As i look back on the path of motherhood that i have trodded so far,there have been lots of ups and downs.

I remember for both my pregnancies,i had threatened miscarriages as i had bleeding and i had to visit the gynae for weekly injections.I remember I had very early contractions when i had Caleb and I was on Ventolin(a muscle relaxant used by asthmatics) for 2 months because the doctor was so worried i will deliver prematurely.

I remember i threw up everything i ate when i had Ian and i lost 5 kg in my first trimester.I also remember that 3 occasions of bleeding and i had one whole week of MC.I also remember i was sick in the gut most of the time,teach halfway and had to run to the toilet to puke, caring for Caleb after work, the housechores and yes,criticisms on why Caleb fell sick often and questioning whether my Hub was growing fat because i was not cooking often enough.

I remember when i was 8 months pregnant with Ian,a 6-7 year old boy walked right in front of me in a crowded supermarket,stared at my swelling tummy for a few seconds before he drove his fist into my tummy.I screamed at his father who said these words in an almost nonchalant way,'Sorry he is autisitic' and walked away.

I am sure there are many moms who suffered worse things and looking back,GOd has really protected and provided so much. Everytime i thought that i was at the end of the road,God provided just enough.Enough grace and strength to go on. And as i pause a while on my sometimes very weary and lonely journey of motherhood,i see the sunrise of your smile.
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