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The sunrise of your smile
Posted by tyan (Singapore, Singapore) on 12 August 2007 in People & Portrait.
This is the title of a song by a Christian singer,Michael Card,written for his daughter.
Sunrise of Your Smile
Reject the worldly lie that says,
That life lies always up ahead,
Let power go before control becomes a crust around your soul,
Escape the hunger to possess,
And soul-diminishing success,
This world is full of narrow lies,
I pray by grace your smile survives.
Chorus- For I would wander weary miles,
Would welcome ridicule, my child,
To simply see the sunrise of your smile,
To see the light behind your eyes,
The happy thought that makes you fly,
Yes, I would wander weary miles,
To simply see the sunrise of your smile.
Now close your eyes so you can see,
Your own unfinished memories,
Now open them, for time is brief,
And you'll be blest beyond belief,
Now glance above you at the sky,
There's beauty there to blind the eye,
I ask all this then wait awhile,
To see the dawning of your smile.
As i look back on the path of motherhood that i have trodded so far,there have been lots of ups and downs.
I remember for both my pregnancies,i had threatened miscarriages as i had bleeding and i had to visit the gynae for weekly injections.I remember I had very early contractions when i had Caleb and I was on Ventolin(a muscle relaxant used by asthmatics) for 2 months because the doctor was so worried i will deliver prematurely.
I remember i threw up everything i ate when i had Ian and i lost 5 kg in my first trimester.I also remember that 3 occasions of bleeding and i had one whole week of MC.I also remember i was sick in the gut most of the time,teach halfway and had to run to the toilet to puke, caring for Caleb after work, the housechores and yes,criticisms on why Caleb fell sick often and questioning whether my Hub was growing fat because i was not cooking often enough.
I remember when i was 8 months pregnant with Ian,a 6-7 year old boy walked right in front of me in a crowded supermarket,stared at my swelling tummy for a few seconds before he drove his fist into my tummy.I screamed at his father who said these words in an almost nonchalant way,'Sorry he is autisitic' and walked away.
I am sure there are many moms who suffered worse things and looking back,GOd has really protected and provided so much. Everytime i thought that i was at the end of the road,God provided just enough.Enough grace and strength to go on. And as i pause a while on my sometimes very weary and lonely journey of motherhood,i see the sunrise of your smile.
Vanessa from Kent, United Kingdom
Lovely photo Tyan and all the joys of motherhood. I think we all look back on our pregnancies and realise how lucky we really are. :-)
12 Aug 2007 8:37am
@Vanessa: yes Vanessa,i think we really are fortunate.thanks for dropping by,really appreciate your comments:)
MaryB from Staffordshire, United Kingdom
A beautiful smile such happy little boy. Bless you tyan stay strong :)
Sadly when I only had 2 months to go before my first son was born my beloved mother passed away :( , I was sent this little poem, it helped me a lot, and has done for the passed 22 years since. I would like to share it with you. :)
When things go wrong as they sometimes will, when the road your walking seems all up hill,
When funds are low and the debts are high and you want to smile, but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down a bit, rest if you must , but don't you quit.
Life is strange with it's twists and turns as everyone of us sometimes learns. and many a failure turns about, when we might have won had we stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow, you may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out, the silver tint of the clouds of doubt, and you never can tell how close you are, it maybe near when it seems so far; so stick to the fight when your hardest hit, it's when things seem worse that you must not quit!
12 Aug 2007 10:11am
@MaryB: thanks so much Mary for sharing! Life is really full of twists and ironies,isnt it?I am very sorry to hear abt that,you must have come through a very tough road too.Thanks for sharing,it is so much more assuring to hear from someone who has been there.:)
ChaCha from United States
WoW tyan...we bless God for his mercies....we sure have alot tothank him for!!!! i'm very much single and yet to experince motherhood...and hearing from my sisters I hear it's not an east task!!!
wHat a happy smile and sure brings joy to my heart.
12 Aug 2007 11:34am
@ChaCha: thanks chacha,yeah his smile just makes me forget all things unhappy:)
ChaCha from United States
Looking at it again i wish i could just pick him up through my screen...ADORABLE!..LOL
12 Aug 2007 11:35am
@ChaCha: thanks chacha,i feel so honoured by your kind words:)
Nancy from Singapore
I believe the complications during the pregnancies make us treasure the kids even more. These little rascals certainly bring much joy to us. Considering a number 3 anytime soon? :p
12 Aug 2007 1:46pm
@Nancy: yeah babe.they do make us treasure them more.lol.No.3?I told myself i never wanted a no.3 cos i was no.3 to my mother and i felt she had not much love left for me after having no.1 and 2,haha.But seeing Ian,i donknow why i kept thinking i shld have a no.3,so cute.lol.Well,at least not in the near future,or my mother-in-law will lecture me to go get a better contraceptive again...lol
@Markus: thanks Markus!:)
Viewfinder from Bradenton, United States
Beautiful story, beautiful child. Blessings abound.
12 Aug 2007 5:59pm
@Viewfinder: thanks Viewfinder!
Rebecca from Leicester, United Kingdom
Such a beautiful smile, tyan. This is what it's all really about, isn't it. :) More than worth all the struggles, tears, sacrifices, the heartache and the pain..Thank you for sharing so bravely all the pain you had to go through on this uphill road to motherhood. Truly how amazing His grace that carries us through each day. And I rejoice with you at His blessings in your life through it all. :) Soldier on, brave friend. :)
12 Aug 2007 7:48pm
@Rebecca: thanks fellow soldier!hehe,having friends like u make the battle more bearable!:)
@Bron: yes he is!:)
Joanie from Singapore
Hey I really love the smile. It's this smile that keeps me going when I see K. Heehee....yes motherhood is fully of ups and downs. Really have to give thanks to God for his provision. Now look back, I really have smooth pregnancies so far with no bleeding except for cramps and ya threatened premature delivery with K but nothing very serious. It's remembering to count your blessings.
13 Aug 2007 3:32am
@Joanie: yeah babe..so is your second one a prince or princess?thanks for popping by and leaving behind kind words.See u soon at your blog!:)
{H} creatives from Santa Clara, United States
A picture that brought smiles and move the heart is more than priceless...it is precious. This is one of them. One to be cherished, for sure, tyan.
It is amazing the Hand of Providence, isn't it? And it is good to see that we live day to day, carried only by this amazing thing called grace.
Bless you, Law, and the boyz! Send regards as always. Cheers!
13 Aug 2007 8:26am
@{H} creatives: thanks,no wonder john newton wrote'amazing grace'!not for nothing!
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